That Was Expected.

Okay, so…. Raya falls on Monday, technically on my birthday. YAY All the while, I can’t deny the fact that I am super excited for Raya, but sincerely, I’m not ready to leave Ramadhan just yet. In shah Allah, with Allah’s will, we will have another Ramadhan next year. May our Ramadhan this year be full of His blessings, hopefully all of our good deeds be received by the Almighty and may Allah bless us with longevity for us to meet with another Ramadhan next year, Aminnnn Ya Rabb.


180 Seconds by Jessica Park


3 stars!!

Okay, so first of all. when I first acknowledge this book, I thought it’d be a good read as I saw tons of positive reviews, even from favorite reviewers of mine who never failed to recommend really good books. first half of this book, I thought.. “hmmm okay. not bad but this wasn’t what I expected, I assume it’ll be better later” and when I got to half of the book, I find this pretty cheesy for its own good.

I mean I love the fact that Allison doesn’t appear to be like the typical heroine I usually come across, but I find her rather annoying for some reason. Especially the part where she had a breakdown and got to thinking how someone could only have ONE person in life that she could love. I mean who does that?? It totally doesn’t add up. This is merely my opinion and I’m pretty sure anyone who reads this might think I’m crazy and all for saying this. But hey, this is a book review and I gotta say what I sincerely think about this book.

I just don’t like the idea of her getting all angry and losing it just by the mere fact of knowing Esben had been in contact with Steffi behind her back. Well it’s not like they flirted each other and go all crazy with each other. Well alright, it does make sense that she felt betrayed but really, I don’t think it could have reached to the extent where she’d call things off with a super nice guy like Esben, right? She’d known him to be this most compassionate and most genuine guy she knows and surely, she could cut him some slack? Plus, wouldn’t the fact that Steffi attempted to know how Allison was doing by getting updates from Esben be a good thing and flattering on part of Allison? At the very least though, on the last days of Steffi’s when Allison couldn’t get in touch with her, Steffi knew how well she’s doing and kept updated with Allison’s life through Asben. And she should be very grateful for that instead of getting all upset and frustrated over the whole thing.

HOWEVER THOUGH, this book’s not all bad and THERE IS totally a lot of good things about this book!

“Hi, everyone,” he says nervously. “My name is Simon, and, uh . . . what makes me happy is . . .” He reaches for a piece of paper and holds it up.
Allison, it says.
“My daughter, Allison. I waited a long time for her to come into my life, and it was worth it. She,” he says, swallowing hard, “she lights up my life.”
He sets down the paper and stops the video.”

Simon. One of the most reasons I love this book. I love the idea of it having a loving father despite him being a foster father. He has all the characteristics of a loving father and he’s the father that any daughter could ask for. He spoils Allison with gifts and most of all, he always makes sure that Allison knows just how much he loves her as his daughter.

“Esben stands directly in front of Christian. “It’s not your winter formal, but we have music, we have twinkle lights, and I’m in a suit. I would be honored to be your first dance.”

“Just say that you love me. Please. Because I am so goddamn in love with you that I can hardly breathe when we’re apart. I know I said it when I was drunk, and I shouldn’t have, even though I meant it. But I’m telling you now that I love you.”

Esben is practically the most compassionate and the most generous person anyone could have ever know if he is in fact a legit person in reality. He loves Allison with all his heart and he had fallen in love with her in those 180 Seconds they had on the social experiment. He is literally an angel in disguise as he used his popularity to save people, to make people happy and just basically to make the world a better place. He has such a clean heart, I don’t think I will ever let him go if he is to be mine. HAHA

“The only thing that matters right now is that I love you. And that you trust that I am strong. It’s time for you to trust that, okay? Steffi, you are my heart, and I will always love you. To the goodnight moon and back. Always and forever.”

“When she found out that no one had ever read me Goodnight Moon, she read it to me every night for weeks. It didn’t matter that I was way too old for that book, because Steffi knew that someone should read it to me.”

I love everything about their friendship. I yearn for a friendship like this, though I’m sure I have the greatest best friend in the world, I wouldn’t trade her for anyone else cause she has always been there for me, no questions asked when I really need a shoulder to cry on. We’ve been through everything together, needless to say. Allison and Steffi’s friendship made me all teary cause it is just so beautiful! Allison’s trip and attempts on getting to Steffi is technically the most heart warming and touching moments I have ever read in a book.

Despite all those criticisms about this book, overall, the good things just outnumbered the bad things and because of that I surely recommended this book. It is totally not overrated, it totally deserves all those compliments. In fact, Jessica Park deserves all the stars in the sky for this book. I surely will consider on reading her other books, next time.

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Everything Happens For A Reason.

We’ve been through a lot in Ramadan this year, just like every other year. I guess this is what we get as a test from Allah every year. It’s just in a matter of how we handle things, I guess. However though, I just think this year’s the most hardest. We prayed, we tried and nothing seems to change. We’re just so close to losing it but really. We can’t really give up that easily, we just need to keep having faith and in shaa Allah, I know good things will come sooner or later. I know and I believe that Allah will never put us into a situation that we can’t handle. Plus, I know for sure that we will get what we prayed for, it’s just in a matter of time, cause Allah knows better. He won’t give us what we want in a wrong time. Perhaps, if we get what we want rn, something bad will happen and for some reason, it is not good for us for the time being. He will surely give us what we want at exactly the right time. In shaa Allah. So for now, with just days left for Raya, all we could do is just keep praying, tawakkal and wait for the miracle we’ve been waiting for to come. It’ll be soon enough, I know it. 


p/s today marks the 27th of Ramadan, the 28th night of Ramadan. In just 2 or 3 days, we’ll be celebrating Raya. HAPPY EID MUBARAK 1438H!!!


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Give thanks to Allah for all the blessings we’ve received as a family on the first day of Ramadhan. After endless hardships and bundles of barriers, we finally get to move in after what feels like forever of waiting. May Allah bless our life, make our current home our heaven in this worldly life and one which will bring us endless rezeki. Amin Amin ya   Rabbal Alamin.


I’m currently in my special semester of my 2nd year in law school here in Brunei. So now comes the time where I’m gonna start my mooting challenges. This is gonna be a hard time for me, I tell you. I don’t really have that much confidence in me to be a public speaker, let alone presenting a present case and practicing my legal skills with THE NEED to impress and convince the judges. We haven’t even started on doing any mooting yet. In fact we just started our first class today but Prof Mohaimin’s introduction on mooting and how it works already scared the shit out of me.

He also stated that we need to have an excellent English speaking skills. Sincerely saying, I am not really that good in speaking in English with people, esp when I’m nervous attempting to impress those people with whom I’m talking to. These judges, are more than just a group of people I’m trying to impress. My grades are depending on how convinced and impressed they’d be by my arguments and presentations in the mooting court. I can barely even convince my mom and impress any of my friends in class, how am I supposed to impress these respected judges??

I’m aware of the fact that I shouldn’t be worried about this. I got this, at least now I think I am. In shaa Allah, I’ll get through this. I really have to put in much work, doing legal research and what not so I could nail the mooting this semester. With hard work, I believe I can achieve better.

First Blog Post

So, here it goes. My first blog post ever, so pardon me if it doesn’t sound as interesting as it looks.

The main reason why I made this blog is to create memories of my struggle as a regular student and a young adult who’s trying to make everyday a better day. In hopes that these memories I’ll be writing will probably be worth the read to look back into a few years after. My inspiration first of all to write a blog is Vivy Yusof. For those who don’t know her (which is impossible cause she’s literally a good starter of a conversation between women nowadays) is this young entrepreneur who made a huge success out of her FV and dUck. Her life is what every girls out there dreamed of, not to mention her marriage life with his loving husband and two of her ever beautiful children.

Honestly, I really wanna be like her when I grow up, just being an inspiration to those girls out there, exclude all those possibilities of being a successful entrepreneur cause doing a business is really not my thing haha! To put everything out, this blog post of Vivy’s is the starter of me writing this blog. Inspiring, isn’t it? Told you.

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You can read more about it here.